design?

how much of it is true i do not know. how ancients alone for years cold know i don't know. how i heard and believed them i do not know. but it is said every life time as human is a reward to fulfilled task - the dharma that one is born with?

is the their birth? i do not know.

it might as well continuity from beginning of time - before time

i am not calling for attention

i have convinced myself that i am prisoner of self and in my space is clean and empty - there is not a speck of green

my writing is for nobody's reading there is nobody

i have a remote to open door when i come driving to my house. when i was irs contractor i was housed opposite irs building. irs building had a fence that would come up automatic from the ground or go down - it light sensitive network control like my garage door

in the morning i was sitting outside in my porch taking in my surrounding without moving a bit seeping my tea in the easy chair

a bush of sunflower has grown about 100 feet away from where i am sitting - they too have light sensitive water sensitive heat sensitive season sensitive built in equipments and they had it before vertebrates came into being

ancients and now i think we too evolved from those green and grew apparatus in our bodies with marked or named appliances that can be replaced if we are not satisfied about

i have eliminated about 4 very large trees surrounding my place - i was threatened by them

do the tree know when i am killing it - sawing it down - does the tree sends out distress signal

the biggest tree when i was sawing it down a neighbor stopped by saying it is the oldest - i did not listen i needed it down - it was creating lot of sparks and disconnection to electrical poles and it did not have the adequate means to clear the fallen branches that filled the surrounding

in my world all is connected and can occasionally become threatening to me- me?

yes i forget i am forever within myself that has no hole even a pin hole

i am forever in delusions - me and my world

i cannot protect me from my world - they are indivisible inseparable by design

it is afterthought infeasible to implement

is it so?

I am self. i surely create me and my world forever new with life time of one moment.if i wish i make another moment to please me and play with. i do not need life time. do i? i pause every moment and sleep and disappear. i need no fence any more.

sleep is my fence

i am myself

i get from sleep
there is none and nothing
then slowly i start seeing
from my store i fetch my definitions
they are all ill defined
but start seeing things with my definitions
in a playful way i distribute cards
i start acting give and take making sounds
my script for the drama
this is my game till i am bored and exhausted
recess I pause