without exception

ghosts bad real dream or sleep - all without exception is me two faces of the same coin

unbelievable but i have to believe

i am limited by a unbreachable barrier of truth

i do not know the space beyond the barrier

i know inside the barrier all is me one hundred percent and they cannot have existence otherwise; i have their blueprint as akashic record - i create and recreate them again and again

i know my logic observations learning conclusions are defective; they are based on assumption and cannot be improved upon and finite

i know i am a total idiot and my status would never change any time

all is divine without choice

i am the divinity without choice

i am not my ideal - i can never be original no matter how hard i work

i cannot help that i am absolute and i cannot change

when would i be able to love my world and me - never

what more can i do about me or my world - nothing

in the dream i saw ma chhorda someshda a landscape totally changed; i try to use my knowledge.... it is impossible; i have to accept my pointless existence that i can do nothing

i must be silent