i only read once about 50 pages raghu sent me to read and comment. he wish to write book. perhaps it is completed. i did not find any story that could grip my attention. it was mixture of things. I could not learn anything. I succeed in talking with raghu once in three weeks. he is very busy. he also tells me that he is going to complete his next book in three months. he also comments i am seclusive. i don't know what it means. for me i have positively attracted to someone. i also gets pissed off by dishonesty. that happens with anyone.
we had a neighborhood shop. in some occasion we used to buy on credit. but usually ma saw to it there is no credit beyond a month. she also used to borrow from neighbors. i used to do that for her and she also used to return. there was no debt running. when we were going away from the neighborhood, the father of shop owner came and said there was four rupees debt. to my belief this was not true. However ma said, she would leave 4 rupees with house owner. the matter ended there. to this day it did not clear off my mind. for me she lied. it is immaterial that this old man lying to make some money on this occasion.
i ring raghu and few others to know about india. i get some message here and there from some people but not from raghu. he is going through a struggle to make both ends meet. not much success to show off. may be writing is his escape. i wonder what he writes.
for me i have to write. my nature is giving. i write to give away something valuable for all if he reads me. i show how to be honest with oneself. how to give without asking any good word in return. i do not continue to keep the connection when i see the receiver learn nothing and his nature has not changed. here is one reason i do not keep any contact with sajal. he is dishonest.
writing is good habit. it makes one honest. it makes one unselfish and laugh at oneself. i do not approve of zinia. even though she lives independently. she keeps company of dishonest persons. it is waste of time a dishonest is dishonest for life time.
raghu was talking about buron's daughter. she is trying to get some papers for immigration to uk. strange she is school. i think 11th year. i did not find worth spending a word.
i have nobody to talk to. not jamai babu, not chandra, ... except for my blog and my monolog
yes i do expect my karmaphal
i cannot deny me nothing - not my karma
we had a neighborhood shop. in some occasion we used to buy on credit. but usually ma saw to it there is no credit beyond a month. she also used to borrow from neighbors. i used to do that for her and she also used to return. there was no debt running. when we were going away from the neighborhood, the father of shop owner came and said there was four rupees debt. to my belief this was not true. However ma said, she would leave 4 rupees with house owner. the matter ended there. to this day it did not clear off my mind. for me she lied. it is immaterial that this old man lying to make some money on this occasion.
i ring raghu and few others to know about india. i get some message here and there from some people but not from raghu. he is going through a struggle to make both ends meet. not much success to show off. may be writing is his escape. i wonder what he writes.
for me i have to write. my nature is giving. i write to give away something valuable for all if he reads me. i show how to be honest with oneself. how to give without asking any good word in return. i do not continue to keep the connection when i see the receiver learn nothing and his nature has not changed. here is one reason i do not keep any contact with sajal. he is dishonest.
writing is good habit. it makes one honest. it makes one unselfish and laugh at oneself. i do not approve of zinia. even though she lives independently. she keeps company of dishonest persons. it is waste of time a dishonest is dishonest for life time.
raghu was talking about buron's daughter. she is trying to get some papers for immigration to uk. strange she is school. i think 11th year. i did not find worth spending a word.
i have nobody to talk to. not jamai babu, not chandra, ... except for my blog and my monolog
yes i do expect my karmaphal
i cannot deny me nothing - not my karma
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